Hurt

Disclaimer: below is not fact-checked if in agreement with official teaching of the Church; rather, it’s a personal exploration/intuition at my current place on spiritual path. May have a subjective meaning to me that I could have failed to fully clearly express in writing.

I got a thought today during an ignatian examen, that when people hurt me, maybe sometimes this is their way of trying to tell me they want me to give them love. A stupid way, but still.

I then tried to rotate this idea, and thus thought, that when I sin, maybe this is my way of trying to tell God that I want Him to give me love. A stupid way, but still. And maybe He understood it when he accepted the Cross. Because I assume He never hurts us to tell us He wants our love, I allow myself to assume He knows it is stupid.

Finally, when I hurt, abuse, sin against myself, maybe this is my way of trying to tell myself that I want me to give me love.